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| Just posting up, if anyone's been looking for me, I'm setting up a new blog!
http://asheka.xanga.com/
It's just getting set up, and will take me a few days to get going again, but just I'd let you all know I'm still alive! As soon as I get the new one running, I'm shutting this one down.
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| Grrs...So, I had an entire 500ml container of Ben n Jerry's cookie dough ice cream the other day and was mortified with myself...strange thing was, I dropped to 130.6 the next day.....I'm back up though...Chad and I went out for dinner last night (East Side Mario's) and I'm assuming with all the salt and everything in restaurant foods, I'm bloated and back up.....
We work tonight (grrs) and I'm taking a big salad and a couple 100cal granola bars, and that's all....I'm gunna try and cut down on over-all intake this weekend. It'll be hard, since we're working...but I figure even if it's higher call, if I can limit what I eat entirely, it's a start...right??
With that, I hope to fast on our days off. We talked bout going to the movies Tuesday night, so I'm thinking a 24hr fast from Mon afternoon till Tues...Gives me enough time to have something healthy before we go to the movies, so I won't be tempted to pig out on popcorn and crap.....I'm not yet positive on the strat time, but if anyone's interested in joining me, let me know!!! We can work out a decent start time, keeping in mind I'm in the EST area lol
I hope to start working out and walking more, since the weather has turned absolutely georgeous lately...Hope it stays!!!
Well, Chad should be home from his doc appt soon so I'm heading offline now I suppose. I know he says he won't interfere with this, but it's just easier when he doesn't see me "promoting" it to myself. Hope you ladies have a lovely weekend! I will try and jump on tomorrow, even if just to comment back!
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| Well, I completed my fast over the weekend, very easily too. Green Tea really does help!
I woke up the next day at 128.2, and managed to stay under 130 for a couple days, but am right back up to 133!! I'm pissed!!! I had planned on eating nothing but cereal and salad today, but Dean brought home like 100 of the mini ice cream things from his store cuz the fridge broke and they were just gunna be thrown out....so I'm expected to eat some of it.......grrrs...
We've been walking A LOT, which is great, but I'm already noticing my calves getting bigger again...it scares me...I want to tone, but I DO NOT want the muscles back I had playing soccer...way too huge looking...I need to get into working out on my elliptical asap...but with our fukd up shifts now, it's hard to find the time and energy....
Well, on another note, today is Chad and mine's 1month. We aren't really doing anything today as we're broke, but we're suppose to go on an official date or something tomorrow, since we get paid. I can't wait! We haven't had much for alone time in a while now...
We had a long talk the other night, so I'm still a bit worried. He said he's trying to move past everything that happened for us to be together, but he still feels like a horrible person for what he did to his ex, etc. and it's fucking with his head sometimes. I just really hope it doesn't interfere with us, though he assured me he loves me more than anything and is happier than he's ever been in his life, etc....I'm still a bit worried...
Well, so far today (as I only woke up about a half hour ago), I've had a bowl of cereal. I'm going to try and avoid the ice cream as much as possible today, for sure....*sighs* I might update later...
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| I am fasting today, since midnight last night and it's actually going great!! Chad hasn't questioned me on not eating yet, but I am worried bout the next few hours....
My mom's coming up to do some groceries with us, so might invite us for dinner, or Chad may buy something intended for dinner tonight.....I'd rather the latter, cuz I can simply ask him to put it off, and save some for me for midnight....Dinner with mom is harder to avoid....
I've had 3 mugs of green tea with honey and skim milk, and about 2 cans of diet pepsi ans my sugars have amazingly not totally fukd me over yet!! *fingers crossed* I've kept busy online and by cleaning my rodent cages. I still have to clean the frog tank when we get back, and we're going through the last campaign for Left4Dead afterwards, so hopefully I can keep my mind busy!!
Wish me luck ladies! I'll hopefully update later!!
*Update*
I completed my fast!! I'm happy, but am a bit down....Chad never questioned or made any comments, but he's been so absorbed with online stuff and band stuff I feel totally ignored.....
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| I have missed you all sooo much and can't wait to get back on track with all of your love and support.
Things have been soooo unbelievably busy here, and now with Chad living with me, things are slightly complicated. He knows, and doesn't disprove totally, but is making it difficult as he's actually wanting to gain weight. He weighs less than I do most of the time, so yea....
I weighed in this morning at 132.5. I was disgusted because for three days I was at 129!!! GRRS My LW in the past couple weeks has been 127.6, but I was also just coming off a 30hr fever....so yea...doesn't exactly count. I am reorganizing my goals and am going to stop this nonsense eating! I love Chad to death, but he is going to have to deal with it.
Just a quick update, as I want to go comment all you lovely ladies before he gets back! <3
*EDIT*
11PM
I ate waaay too much today!! I hate this, I'm like always hungry!!! I am debating a fast tomorrow. I have TONS of green tea and we're suppose to grab some pop tonight, so I could easily do it, the only issue is Chad.....I am trying to decide if I should tell him, or just try and wing it.....He said he'd never force me to eat or try and stop me and shit, but of course will worry.....So am thinking of just doing it, and if he asks or anything, I'll explain.....*shrugs* Best I can do....
Anyone wanna join me though?? I'm not 100% on the starting time, as my sugars are always lowest in the morning, but I tend to eat too easily at night and have to eat before work...GR...Hrm...I'm thinking at midnight tonight, in one hour! I can put a large amount of honey in my tea and hopefully it'll help...and if I'm too dizzy in the morning, I'll just eat and start over...no biggie....
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